13.4.12

Stone Sour - Through Glass

I'm looking at you through the glass.
Don't know how much time has passed.
Oh, god it feels like forever.
But no one ever tells you that forever
feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head.

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget.. you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes
Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(Null and void instead of voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars
That shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars
That lie to you. yeah-ah

I'm looking at you through the glass.
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass.
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars
That shine for you.. yeah-ah
And it's the stars
The stars
That lie to you.. yeah-ah

And it's the stars
The stars
That shine for you.. yeah-ah
And it's the stars
The stars
That lie to you.. yeah-ah yeah

Ohhhoh when the stars
Ohhh oh when the stars that lie

9.4.12

Even niet meer...

Ik zie het even niet meer zitten allemaal.
Ik heb pijn. Heel veel pijn.
Die pijn maakt me ongerust.
Wat heb ik toch? Reuma? 1 of andere spierziekte. Aanstelleritis A?
Ik weet alleen dat de pijn echt is. En dat zelfs dit zeer doet.
Wou dat ik er gewoon een eind aan kon maken,
ja zo ja.
Gewoon klaar, over.
Boek dicht, einde verhaal.
Vrijdag...
Nee niet dat!
Vrijdag naar de reumatoloog. Hopen dat hij iets vind.
En dat het dan te bestrijden is. Ik wil weer wat doen.
Geld verdienen. Werken. Mensen om me heen!

Lig nu te huilen in bed. Gefrustreerd tot op het bot.
Ben er echt klaar mee.

HELP!!!

16.1.12

It's just me

I lost a piece of me in you;
I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared,
But remember that I cared quite a lot.

You see but lately I've been on my own.
Yeah one, but one by choice.
You see, thats a first for me,
There's only me, yeah theres only me,
And now I realize for once,
It's just me.
It's just me.
It's just me,
And I'll find a way to make it,
There's noone left to stop me.
Here I go.
Can we take it from the top?

So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I'm already spent living half my life undone
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again.
I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends.
I've tried to push them all away,
They push me back and wanna stay
And that's one good thing I have.

I'm gonna feel a peace in me,
I'm gonna feel at home.
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone.
I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor.
I don't wanna hurt no more.

Yeah it's just me.
It's just me
And i'll find a way to make it.
There's noone left to stop me.
Here i go, can we take it from the top?

So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

So why so long?
So sad, i wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

I used to be the one who won before.
I used to smile but dont no more.
I'm living just to watch it all go by.

9.10.11

Trapped?

Can't leave the house because of the pain.
Don't wanna know what causes it,
because I am afraid for the consequences.

Even writing this sort-off hurts.
I want it to be over, but then again...
To be over I need to know what it is.
Of witch I'm afraid.

Dropping things because you don't have the strength in or control over your hands.
Stepping on things, tripping over things.
All because of [please fill in if you know it]